A gale of resistance was sweeping Northern Kurdistan. In Sur, Cizir, Gever, Hezex, and Nisêbîn… A shocked Turkish state would be brought to its knees. Street by street, house by house the youth of Northern Kurdistan would protect their honour against the invading enemy. Ingraining their names into history, an exhausted people would be revived with the idea of autonomy, of a life worth living. Thus, the resistance would begin.
Written by Martyr Zeryan Deniz Amed, a commander of the resistance, the translated Şırnex diaries will become a window to the reality of the heroes on the ground.
“Bury the martyrs in your heart, not in the ground,” the Peoples’ Leader Abdullah Öcalan.
So many things have piled up. On the 16th, Çekdar was assassinated in Dicle. They said the bones of his foot were broken and heavier. He was hospitalized because he was a civilian. He was then executed by the police. All institutions of the state are completely focused on the destruction of Kurdistan.
Wounded patients are not treated. We insist on keeping Ismet Pasha. Preparations are complete. The other day, the Tatars pulled guns, and the other day they raided. Comrade Delil was injured, dragged and brought to the streets with his blood still trailing the ground. The Tatars are now armed against us.
Delil’s wound was mild, it became severe the other day. His heart stopped twice. It was intervened, he just lay in our arms. The worst thing is that there are no measures for health, and if the situation gets worse, martyrdoms happen because there is no treatment for the injured. This is the situation. Delil is good now, but he does not have a high tolerance to the pain because he is young.
They said that Bedri was also injured when he was dealing with Delil, and we brought him. His body is strong, but his right arm is torn. He could be crippled.
We insist on keeping the Ismet neighbourhood, and we need to act quickly because the enemy has operational preparations. We’re going to hit the enemy first, and we’re going to hit them in the heart. But if some preparations are weak, if we don’t fight a new style, things will get worse.
We call it democratic autonomy. But the state is encrypted in the minds, dominates the spirits. If we do not organize in our own fields, self-governance without the mercy of the state is weak. It’s all on the guerrilla’s shoulders right now. You know we’ll carry it.
Social spaces, politicians are experiencing betrayal. There are a few precious people, and they are devotedly sacrificing themselves. But there is no social organization. Everything is the guerrilla… Organizationally there are problems. Fortunately, Arjin came, the number of women increased.
There is an intense war at Hezex right now, we don’t know the details. Cizir resisted to the marrow, it passed through the Crimea but did not kneel.
The latest photos came from the morgue again, nobody knows who they are, the corpses are in terrible condition, Kurdishness is wanted to be killed completely. We’ll pay the price but we will never kneel. Our share is to resist. Resisting beyond death, not till death.
I miss Asia very much. Her absence is so obvious, oh how she went. All the people are talking about her. She had built a throne in the hearts of everyone. I’m looking for her a lot, yearning.
Çekdar: He is a smiling young man. His face, his laugh, it has been haunting me for days. I will live bravely for these valiant people. A comrade must be brave to be a comrade. In every step I take, they’ll be in every bullet. They’re my moment of winning. Resisting beyond death, with longing.
I was stuck in the Cumhuriyet neighbourhood to keep Ismet Pasha for many days. Preparations and interviews received partial results. We need to get a little political. We need to keep the neighbourhood in place without internal conflicts. We’ve done the planning for now and then we’ll practice it right away.
Last night a division of mines were spotted in the division, but friends acted early and nothing happened. Bullet sounds were rising in the city. Bedri and Delil’s wounds are getting worse. It’s dangerous for us to keep it this way.
Today Agit came with the friends, we took a meeting, I had some criticisms. I made them and he had some criticisms to make himself.
It is not the first time I am seeing it, but I can’t get used to it. Could a human be so far from the free consciousness? Is the male phenomenon so reverse? There are many valuable male friends, but there are many aspects of masculinity in common, which is strange.
I’m tired of the intensity of the work. Nevertheless, I do not lose my determination. But we need to create innovation in our war style, tactics must be different, the enemy is preparing itself. We’re getting ready. It is a critical stage. I will make myself stronger and more powerful.
It’s raining outside. Sirnak remains silent. Sirnak is soaking quietly. The smell of charcoal broke into the city. It narrows my breath as I walk. Black smoke rises from the chimney of the houses. A few children break the silence. It’s us and the kids who don’t mind the rain. The day guards are roaming through the barricades.
I watch the news of the day, persecution and death are everywhere. In Nisêbin, a mother was shot in front of her children. Intense clashes erupted in Derik, Hezex, and Gever. Sirnak is now quiet, gunfire rises at night. The people are very tense and full of fear. This process is similar to the beginning of Rojava. Just as Kobane destroyed the fear from ISIS atrocities, we must destroy the AKP with a similar fortress of resistance. In this way, the public overcomes fear. These people will overcome fear with fearless heroes. And this place will be Botan.
The oppressed Kurdish people take refuge in power. This reality, in the face of a trembling policeman, is a roar. After all, these people are ours. Despite all our insufficiencies. There will come times when these days are long gone. Everyone will be with us again.
Yesterday, despite all the obstacles we have kept Ismet Pasha neighbourhood. The first barricades were made, the people revolted against us. They made all kinds of obstacles.
There are no insults I haven’t heard. Still, it’s fine. We got Ismet Pasha, it’s no problem. But the situation is still critical. Internal problems are loading. We must be very sensitive. Ismet continues to work to keep the neighbourhood. With determination, stubbornness, and the spirit of revolution…
Days are cold, days are tense and deserted. The effects of the action in Ankara are very strong. Everywhere sacrificers are taking action against the enemy. Zınar Raperin’s heart became the breath of Cizre. Zınar did what all of Kurdistan could not. There was a sound to our silence. The barricades of the İsmet neighbourhood continue. A lot of our focus is on Ismet pasha.
Problems continue in the İsmet neighbourhood. We continue to build barricades for the sake of stubbornness. The other day, a group of Hüda-Pars conducted road control stating, “We are the grandchildren of Sheikh Said”. We didn’t hit them, the balances continue. We have difficulty in quantity there. With the existing issues, the work continues.
We finished the martyr Asia term, we had a glorious ceremony. I spoke at the ceremony and I was very excited to do it for the first time. Then we made short and enthusiastic morale. We graduated these cute young girls and sent them to the neighbourhoods. Families can be a problem, most of the time is spent solving people’s problems. It doesn’t matter if we try. These people will appreciate the value of their hero children.
Sometimes I say these people don’t deserve such sons and daughters. But there are rooted reasons for this.
The situation of the wounded friends is getting worse. Delil’s foot is bruised. He’s asking me when he’s gonna be okay. The doctor came today, they’re gonna cut off his foot, it’s gangrene. I need to cut up the knee. There’s a small chance that it might be a little lower. That’s a small chance. Delil is young. A blind bullet stopped him from running. Delil will run no more.
Even when I go next to Delil, it affects me a lot. How will we tell him that his foot must be cut off? Apparently iit is because there was no early intervention. Even the most serious injuries are intervened with by health workers. If the war intensifies, most injuries will become martyrdoms. Because there’s no honourable doctor. Bedri’s arm may be disabled. We couldn’t get platin. Already the conditions of treatment are under the most primitive conditions. We are pushing all possibilities to heal the wounded.
There’s a lot of information about the attacks. It is certain that the enemy will not hold in this process. Preparations are continuing on some issues, but not enough.
There’s something wrong. Compelling and devoid of meaning. Our share is participation and always working. Working for free days…
Martyr Zeryan Deniz Amed
to be continued…